I like to think.
And I over do it sometimes.
I think reflections are good.
Used to do it a lot in the past.
I miss the old me haha.
Anyw, was checking out my old blog posts,
clearing any extremely embarrassing posts or
any that will make my bbg jealous haha.
Which made me realise the gradual transformation of my personality(?) or mood?
Happy go lucky, solemn, self hating, serious, depress and lastly, lost.
Such a sad storyline haha with some happy notes in between.
But yeah, each word describe a phase in my life since sec 1.
Just pretty sad that i miss all those times i spent with the 5 of them
when we were younger and had nothing to lose.
Then the stakes got higher as we received responsibilities
and were exposed to the sad truth of the practical nature of the society.
Self esteem and confidence have always been an issue for me.
And they are constantly on a roller coaster ride.
They say when you are so far behind or down, the only way left is up.
Similarly, when you are so high up there, the only way is down.
Thus, those demons of mine rose prominently last year as I plummeted.
All time low.
Im still trying to get back out there till this day.
I miss the old me.